- accidentally awesome research for Arthur and The Twilight Zone
Emails from Paloma and Judith and Diane, excited about my writing
Watching the Christmas movies from years past; home movies!!! (I am a ham for real though)
Last year, as graduate school ended and I faced tough decisions like stay in Canada or leave, apply for jobs in Toronto or Texas or Tennessee or Taiwan… my mom suggested that I focus on just finding three things every day that make me happy. No matter how bleak and uncertain the path ahead looked, I could find three reasons to be thankful, happy, and joyful just looking back on the past 24 hours.
Just 3 Happy Things…
It didn’t help immediately, but now a year later I’m pretty pleased to say that I have a long list of usually more than 3 positive things that happened to me or that I created for myself every single day.
Sent off emails and applications–getting stuff off my chest
spaghetti squash leftovers
Stanley Kubrick exhibit = artist date this week
really great emotional connection in somewhere never travelled rehearsal
finding ravine, even though I didn’t find the geocache (yet)
watched Little Mermaid = cure for headache (apparently)
Scrolling back through the list, it becomes harder to pinpoint when I was working a joe job and struggling or when I was script coordinating at Tarragon and loving my day-to-day experiences. They all blend together into a great big picture of what has worked this year–and what I’ll keep searching to find and manifest in the next.
I know psychologists say that we as humans have a tendency to over-remember the positive events and gloss over the negative–the valence effect. I don’t doubt that this is true as a general rule, but I do think that for those like me who live with anxiety thinking more on the positive side helps the day-to-day feel less insurmountable.
At least the unknown will most likely include some of the following:
- walking to get milk
- warm tea, tv, and getting shit done on a Saturday morning
- wearing purple tights
Even the days where these were the best I could brainstorm, it’s still better than writing down and recording the blues (or mean reds), the negative email, or just-missed streetcar. It’s easy to make lists of all the negative things in the world.