My word this year is…
Last year was all about energy. Mainly conserving it. I even needed input from my friends across social media to come up with my word for 2018 because I was so spent.
Now that my physical and mental health is looking up (haven’t been sick in two months, *knock on wood*), I’m ready to refocus and move forward into 2019.
Though the global situation looks bleak, I am lucky to have had 2018 to refocus and reground myself. I now live in a more stable home environment, one without any negative energy. It’s a place where my family and friends want to come to spend time with me. I call it “Maggie’s Grotto.” And though I bought the mug picture below in July, I saved using it until this day in September, my first in my grotto.
Connect means putting thought and intention into action.
There are so many goals I have had over the past few years. They have felt out of reach or I just kept making excuses (not ready, not stable, don’t have enough money). Many of them no longer feel valid, so it’s time to set clear goals and timelines.
This means you should see more updates like #31days31plays from me. And a podcast announcement before the end of 2019.
It’s also a year for connecting and re-connecting with friends and family.
I had to step away from so much last year, both my theatre/arts friends and from community members. I didn’t have the energy to do much else besides work and healing. I didn’t know what to say, how to be genuinely present with friends and acquaintances who didn’t know me and my current challenges. I backed away because I had to then, but I don’t want to feel so isolated.
So I will be sending more letters. Making more phone calls. And spending more time investing in the relationships that give me light and love. It’s an intentional reconnection.
I don’t want to go back to the spinning, pre-2018 me. There are great parts about her: her drive, her discipline, her goals, her wide, diverse community in Toronto and globally. I will take those with me and leave the rest of that girl behind.
This year, I even have a theme song for this word: “Back Together” by Matt Nathanson
(which you can listen to here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qs9AjGW0wpM)
It’s all about not being ashamed of your scars and after doing all the work to feel better, leaving that part of the process behind. Or at least, that’s what I am taking from his lyrics.
It helps that I have tickets to see him live again in 2019. For the third time…